First Mother's Day present from Bokamoso

 I have always liked the idea of being a mother long before I could have my son. I loved mother's Day and enjoyed making presents for my mom and aunt but now the wheels have turned. This Mother's Day was special, I didn't send any present to my mom or my aunt or even my sister but I was blessed with a present from my son. I know it was a bit selfish of me to just relax but this year was mine. I got my present and I loved it. Happy Mother's Day to all the beautiful Mothers! 

Beyoncé - Pretty Hurts

Perfection is a disease of a nation...

Sabata-The bitter/sweet death

Ever been to a funeral of a person you've never met and wished you knew him/her? I was at a funeral of a young man named Sabata. Everyone who spoke of him mentioned that he had a smile that brighten up everyone's day. The one thing that captured my mind about him was that those who were with him on the day of his death testified that he asked for prayer. He died a terrible accident. That was the bitter part of this whole situation. The sweet part is that he was playing gospel music and sang along with it on that day. Before they went on their trip he asked for prayer, then a few minutes before he met death, he mentioned that he sensed something bad and asked for yet another prayer. When the accident was about to happen, he fought hard to avoid it but was defeated. He apologized to them saying he tried but couldn't safe their lives,that was the end of them. Ten people died and I heard of one survivor who told the family that sad story. The beauty about this is that he entered the gates of heaven with a prayer. It felt like he knew that it was time. I didn't know him but the stories they told about him made me wish I met him. Rest in Peace.

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  Revelation 14:13

  Then I heard a voice from heaven say, "Blessed are the dead who die in the Lord from now on." "Yes," says the Spirit, "they will rest from their labor, for their deeds will follow them."
  
  
  
  

Mutle Mothibe - Parkinson's

Waking up at 03:20 am

Selfies with my family.

I met death at dawn. It had taken my mother away from us...
I had a terrible dream. The dream felt real. I was sad and everyone around me could see that I was saddened by the whole thing but I was frustrated in that dream. People couldn't understand why I cried the way I did. I couldn't accept the situation because to me when death arrives in the family it should give us signs, signs that we can contemplate on after the funeral. That's the time when we sit down  and remember the moments we had with the deceased. It is during that time when we are able to point out certain things that gives us hints of the manner in which the person died, what their last words were and their behavior in general.   In that dream, I remember saying that there were no signs, there was nothing that my mom did or said that we could look back at and say, "yeah she was prepared to go." I couldn't heal in that dream, I failed to understand why she died the way she did, without hints.  I was left in the dark, saddened. In the last part of the dream, I thought of my dad, Pawe I asked someone if he had seen him and I was told he was doing laundry. He was with my son, like always. He was hiding away from me because he couldn't stand looking at me. We were both sad and I said to him, "Pawe, pelo yaka e botlhoko. (My heart is sore)." He held back his tears for both my and Bokkie's sake. Then said, "Let me get you pain killers."

My beautiful Family, i just had to capture this moment.

I woke up from that dream and tears were still on my eyes,  i continued to cry and prayed. I prayed mostly because it was a dream and I could relive my life with my loved ones. I love my parents and family but God spoke to me in that dream, it felt like he said, " Appreciate the little things in life. Love and honor your parents. I can choose to take them back to me and leave you to learn life without them. I can also keep them for you to appreciate and honor them." The dream was sad because it was about death but the beauty of it was the wisdom I got from it. There's nothing sad than wishing to tell your parents or anyone important in your life that you love them when they have departed from this world. We are all given an opportunity to change our lives and do the little things that make our loved ones feel loved. It's not about the worldly things, it's not about the gifts, it's not about the good food it's not even about showing the world that you love them by publicizing everything you do for them in the social space. However, it's about love, time and knowing how to use them both. Spending time with them, especially the parents is wisdom. Loving and honoring them is life. It is beautiful.

My family means a lot to me and I appreciate that not one of the important puzzles is missing. I thank God for the wake up call. Some don't have parents, some don't have the things that we have but do a better job than us. When Kanye West said people never get the flowers while they can still smell them. He spoke about our situations in life. Appreciation, love and respect should be what we give to our parents. There's no use buying them expensive coffins and flowers when they are dead. The opportunity is now to show them how much we care.  I know i don't give them much but I am going to try and be better than I was yesterday. 03:20 in the morning was a life changing event for me. I have learned and will keep my promise. Honoring my parents will be the order of my life until they are no more. In Jesus name Amen. 

Happy Friday

Giving some pursuit of happiness motivation

I am enjoying this Friday! I don't know if it's because i am going to an all night prayer at work or if my friend Dineo is coming or even both. My day started off with good motivation from this beautiful soul on Facebook Zanele Motaung, who saw yesterday's blog and decided to help me out. I felt productive after wards, i guess i was being hard on myself and needed a lil push in that direction. I am glad i watched those videos, i will share them soon. I can't wait for tonight...leaving you with this beautiful scripture: Matthew 18:20 "For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them."

In desperate need of motivation

I don't know if I am the only one who suffers from fatigue as the year goes by. When the year began, I was full of energy, had plans and procedures I followed to do my duties productively both at work and at home. I was going well, woke up early, prepared the night before but then my scale of energy dropped. I am now dragging to do things. I need some kind of help to get back to where I was earlier in the year. It is really not helping, sulking and complaining about being tired and lacking motivation. I know I need to do things and if I don't I suffer the consequences...that's the only motivation I have to do most of the things. But what am i to do when I feel so fatigued? I really am in need of motivation. Paballo is in desperate need of motivation.