How to Know When You've Found Your Purpose in Life

I love listening to Oprah while working and today was no different. I was listening to a conference she had and she was there to inspire young people who are still searching for meaning in their lives. As someone who knows what she wants I sometimes fear the things I think about...I wonder how I am going to handle all of them but people like Oprah Winfrey just give one hope. Its like they are standing right next to you, saying..."You can do it." So, as I was watching this inspirational video she shares a story of a woman she had an interview with and the lady said, "When you betray yourself, you are no different to the person that hurt you." I was like wow! We need these words in our lives. Sometimes we blame people for our own betrayals.

I am Paballo Seipei, today I was just mind opened by Oprah's talk.

Gratitude is the way of life

Kgololoseo Phiri & Paballo Seipei

I just experienced a life enhancing experience. I had a conversation with my boyfriend about the future. And two days before this conversation I downloaded Oprah Winfrey’s lecture at Standford University which talks about spirituality, love and fulfilment. In this lecture she makes the students meditate and I also meditated. The thing that was meditated upon was life and the power within us. It was a meditation about the gratitude of life. Being grateful for every breath we take, being grateful for every experience and being grateful for an opportunity to change for the better.  As I was typing this, she was playing in the background and she was saying, “I have chosen love.” I typed it because what she was saying was what my boyfriend and I were talking about. We both chose love. Then I heard, “The kind of love that counts.” This love we have counts. This love says “I am here for you no matter what.” I suddenly realised that God was speaking to me through that lecture. I had an “Aha moment” thereafter. Downloading this lecture was like a preparation for the future, the future that my boyfriend and I talk about lately. God spoke to me and I listened. God is love and we chose love. That was the reason why that video found me.

The message I was left with was: “To master the power of your field you must consistently chose love, live in the space of gratitude and know that the power you feel from time to time comes from a source that is greater than yourself.”

I am Paballo Seipei and I believe in the supernatural power within me. Thank you God. 

Insecurity is not attractive

I'd like to think that I am one of the strongest people I know. However, I'd also like to think that i'm one of the craziest people I know. I've discovered lately that I've got two personalities that are very opposite to one another. The one that people know me with is very optimistic, sweet, loud, happy and charismatic while the other one is evil, investigative, insecure, and crazy...literally crazy. I don't portray that side me of me unless if someone has done something bad to me and I want to be spiteful and avenge. Andsometimes it appears from nowhere. I'm still trying to figure it out although its something I never want to face. I'm also possessive, territorial and I want everything for myself. I've seen people like those and never thought I had that in me. Idon't like them but I somehow fallinto that category. Anyways, I realised that my insecurities cloud my judgement, I react too quickly at times and I end up doing the wrong things. I end up being wrong. I don't want to be that person, Somehow i feel like it's the devil trying to build a home in me. I'm achild of God and I know these things happen when the devil wants to try people who fall on God's side and not his. I don't know how to explain this but someone who's seen that part of me said that I was insecure and that insecurity is not attractive. I'm just writing this as some kind of therapy. I don't have a storyline or motive this time.This is just me concerned about myself.

I am Paballo Seipei and today I just want to share even through it doesn't make sense.